The planets aligned for me... A brand new, black '06 Mitsubishi Colt ES is all mine!!! Mine would you believe it??! We managed to do a deal for 17.5K! That's just awesome! Was going to get red but I am happy with black I guess too. I had to do a bit of negotiation with my parents to get this deal down. They advanced me $1000 birthday present and gave me a $500 loan to be paid back by Christmas. I don't know what I would do without them sometimes honestly! So.. I have a car and hopefully I will be picking it up by Friday!

In other news I've been flat out between work and uni. Not really in much of a mood to talk about it right now but thought I should throw in an update here!

I'm in love!!! With the '06 Mitsubishi Colt LS!! The problem is that the dealer I went to wasn't prepared to negotiate beyond $300 different from the 19K they were asking for... I just can't let go of that car though. It is a nice ride, it is comfortable with all the right things in all the right places. It hugs the road and goes when you put your foot down. Not to mention the beautiful little turning circle! *sigh*... now to find a way to make one mine...

Other than that prac is fast approaching and I'm about to dive into the most unbelievably busy period ever. I am stressed about getting the Res Methods assignment done, getting a car and going on prac unpaid etc. I guess one day at a time...

Odd how busy things are but how little there is to write...

I spacked out today and didn't go to uni. Completely threw it in. Couldn't hack going. Not today. I went back to bed and had some sleep. Actually dreamed for the second time in ages... Then had restless sleep until about midday... Got up and did some research on comprehensive car insurance. I can't believe the charges that some of these guys want to apply just because I am under 25! I am now tossing up between NRMA and AAMI. They weren't too bad.. I've got my Dad on case. The other places that I visited were quoting anywhere between $1600 and $2000 per annum!

On the bright side I got a little bit of my research proposal outline completed. I really have to do some actual research which really s***s me. I am worried about not getting that done but I know that at least I will have next Tuesday if nothing else.

Feeling stressed... and fearing I am having a very gradual slide back into a previous darker state. I am driving myself nuts because I am not sure whether to act or not. I don't really want to because I like being in an intelligent state where I can actually feel emotion and what not. But I can't ignore my perpetual sleep problems and lack of motivation that has been present recently. Perhaps I am just not coping very well with all these things happening at once?? If only I knew...

Supposed to go to training tonight and I have only just managed to convince myself to go... Why is this getting so hard...

Well.. looking forward.. loan sign up is tomorrow and the shopping on Saturday. That should at least keep me happy for a while!

Today has been a very productive day. We have an inspection tomorrow so I cleaned up the house! Even today too! I have to say that I jsut love the feeling of a nice clean house!

Anything else? No.. not really! Just going to go back to playing with my bot The Psych. It has been a little while since I've been into the whole AI experience but I've rediscovered my passion. The Personality Forge has made many new developments since I was last active there. It means there is a greater potential for development. To make a good bot though there is just so much ground that needs to be covered!

The very centre of my scalp on top of my head is itchy. Relevant? No. What am I talking about? Nothing. It's been a bit of an interesting time of late. Today I tried to get organised for car shopping. This is not fun. I am really looking to the idea of a Getz, in particular a Getz SXi. I reckon I could land that within my budget (even with four doors) with a bit of tactical persuasion. In theory anyway. We've decided to put off the shop until next weekend... guess I am not particularly impressed about that. I have to update my availability for work I think. *sigh* Feel like I am cutting it all very close for prac.

Gosh I feel messed up...

I found an old tape that I have made when I was back in grade 6.. 10 years ago. Unlike when I've rediscovered it in previous years I found that I sounded really young. It reminds me of Bek, a young friend of mine. I'd also recorded these MIDIs that I used to like from back then.. they were from a few different websites. I think they were probably from '98 though.. It was just so enlightening listening to myself babble away (I was reading my investigation to be played later at school). It's funny because I remember one of them went for ages and I couldn't work out why I couldn't do it faster... now I can see why. I was a volatile kid but at least I was a happy one. I wish I was there now again...

Today I felt very lonely. Last night my boy went out to catch up with school friends after training. I just felt lost all over again. Periodically I am reminded that I don't have many friends and that I am isolated without my own transport. I guess that feeling carried over today. Just felt so completely alone in our house. There was noone online for very long to talk to. I did get to talk to Mum for a while. Got her into http://webmessenger.msn.com so we could chat. It is always good talk to her... *sigh*

On the up side of things.. I got the call today approving my loan! That means I can take next weekend to go car hunting! I am quite excited about that! I'm going to have my own person flea!!!

Think I am going to leave it there.. not much feeling like talking

That was directed at our ISP that for some reason has become increasingly annoying with its drop off rate and the number of times it just seems to shut us out of the connection for no apparent reason!

*sigh* Anyway, today I have been in a lazy mood. I actually had another great night last night. Slept brilliantly! However, I woke up this morning and it did take me roughly 2 hours to find the motivation to get dressed. I had planned to wash the bed sheets and do the dishes but that just didn't end up happening. I've been on the computer instead... until now. STUPID ISP!!!

Haven't really even planned class for tonight. I need to do that too. I was sorta hoping to get called into work tonight. There is a possibility that might end up happening on my way to karate again... would rather not have that happen again though. I really don't want to get called in tomorrow night... For good reason... Anyways...

Today has been a lazy day! Last night I had the sleep I've had in quite a while! I then took the opportunity to sleep in until about 11am. I feel better for it too. Decided not to do anything other than wash the towels in order not to destroy the feel good feeling I had. Feeling substantially better too. Getting closer to being fully recovered.

Yesterday was a pretty full day. Up early and off to uni in uniform. Spent the morning doing trauma scenarios... still feeling a bit stupid with that. Ah well.. Then lunch at the dodgy refec. I found that their sausage rolls are quite alright. They are about 30c overpriced but better than a number of $$$ overpriced liked everything else! Finished uni with ¾ of a lecture. It was then off to investigate a loan. That went well... the person we spoke with seemed pretty confident. I should hear either this afternoon or Monday. Then I should be a brand new in 2 -3 weeks! 2 -3 weeks was a lot better than 6 weeks.

Anyways, after that I got picked up by and we went of to visit our friend in hospital. Turns out it wasn't a nicked bowel like it had sounded which is great! She's looking a heck of a lot better and moving around a fair bit now too. Will be a another before they let her come out though because of the problem that did occur. Finished the day with watching school debates. I wish I had understood what it was about back then as well as I do now. I don't really miss being up the front.. I seem to have developed some major problems with speaking to a group.

So.. I've had a really good two days.

I went to go and talking July.. only to realise it is now August! Where has the time gone?

What's new?? Well I have the flu. It is not particularly bad.. just annoying. My nose is drippy enough to say that it is not clear but not drippy enough to say that it is runny... Bleh! Hoping that it will clear up a bit for tomorrow. Tomorrow is going to be a very long day. For most of it I have prac (in uniform this time), followed by a lecture. Joy! Anyway, after that I am going for an interview for a loan! At long last! I had to actually ring the bank about the statements... apparently my request was never dispatched. So the operator did it over the phone and waived the charge for me. I then had to chase up uni because they never responded to my email. The person who I rang said they'd follow it up and give me a call... which she didn't so I marched in there today and gave them the angry face. I got a new copy printed out on the spot!

I had to make an appointment for the loan lodgement.. strangely they were only really interested in my enrollment letter. I am going to very unimpressed if I find out that all that documentation was not even necessary! The actually application form is filled with all sorts of junk too. They wanted to know when I opened my main account... I was five!! Should look presentable seeing I am going in uniform tomorrow though.

Also intend to visit a friend who is currently in hospital after having their appendix burst! Ouch!

Can't think of anything much else to say but my nose is starting to be a pain again which really turns me off concentration wise....

Oh did I mention that it is a really good idea to always carefully read stuff before you go removing things on your computer! I did something before that removed every single shortcut to Internet Explorer and Media Player off my computer!