Wow. This is only the third entry I've done this month. 
I didn't realise I'd let it slip so much. At present I am feeling well and truely exhausted. This is the first day that I have had off since my exam last Friday. I've worked overnight Saturday, overnight Sunday, Tuesday day and overnight Wednesday. It really does knock it out of you. I am glad for the rest but at the same time I am going through a degree of withdrawls at the moment... Spent all this morning waking up every so often expecting the phone to ring. I could believe it last night when I got a message asking if I wanted another night shift just after I had done one from Wednesday night. I could realistically take it because I was very tired during Wednesday night / Thursday morning and didn't get a whole lot of sleep when I did get home on Thursday.
I'm home alone at the moment. 
has gone away to the GC until Sunday for WASO. I wanted to go but I didn't have the money for accomodation or for the $130 spectating fee for three days. 
I guess I feel a bit like I've been just "left" here... Kinda of wanted us to go away together for the first time. I guess also part of me feels lonely in that most people I know or associate with are because of him. There is not many people who I would go away with. I haven't even had anyone over to see our new place....
There is much to be done but I am so tired that I can't be bothered. Seems all like too much effort right now... It will be time to update the site in ready for the new month soon too... Uggg
Tired 
and Low 
Today is my first exam and I feel a cross between nervous and guilty. Primarily because I've lost all interest in this semester and haven't studied. I am waiting for time to go by before I have to get dressed and head into uni. I am also slightly stressed by the things I need to cover by Monday and Wednesday and how little time I have left myself to do that.
On the bright side I am going to visit my parents tomorrow for my Dad's birthday last week. I've been really looking forward to it! 
Will also give me a chance to steal some supplies that we need for our house and kitchen! 
You never quite realise until you move out how much is involved in a house! It's now been a whole four weeks since we moved in and I am happy to say that things are now getting quite cruisey. The worst part is probably that I have interenet access when I want so I have difficulty getting study done. But everything else is good.
We entertained our first lot of guests on Wednesday night for State of Origin. Went quite smoothly I think! I will have to check with my guests to make sure though! 
Good experience all round. Had a bit of hiccup with discovering that the actually oven compenent of the oven doesn't actually heat anything up. Fortunately, the grill does work so all was not lost and we did end up enjoying some very tasty chips! I look forward to entertaining again... well provided I am not interested in what is going on!
Anyway, probably time to get ready and go...
Okay so the storm has calmed down. I am feeling substantially less agro 
than I was earlier today. I am not sure particularly what has calmed the storm but the good thing is that is has... That means I can get back to functioning normally and can approach things with a rational mood!
Many thanks to Jo and tamaw/pants for your nice comments on my feedback forms. It is good to know that someone cares! 
for you both! These past couple of weeks have been a bit of a rollercoaster as we discover what we are as people and how best to interact with one another. There is work to be done but it seems doable.
I'm on study break before exams at the moment and I've been making a degree of headway on the work. But there is still much to be done. Feeling better means that I will be better able to do that.
Karate at the moment is going well. Finally the confidence is coming back... Still got a few areas to work on as far as confidence goes though. I'm starting to peak which I guess is not great because like last time, I am not headed to this black belt grading but have been told the next one is my goal. I don't know if they will have another one at the end of the year. My greatest fear is it being on at the end of next year. That will mean a HUGE grading and me being awfully annoyed at people grading that shouldn't have passed and feeling gipped for time. 
Confidence is a funny thing. I remember as a brown belt I felt so far superior to the red belts... yet now I see them as a threat. I fear people from my old region grading... I guess cause I will not longer officially be ahead and if the grading turns up at the end of next year then I will be equal with them... 
Okay so the advertisement of the day is my new FTP program. The really old version of cuteFTP that I was using decided that it didn't like working on this particular network. The newer version only allows you to select on file at the time which is dodgy...so I downloaded Core FTP Lite. It is an awesome little program with way too many functions! So if you are looking for a nifty free FTP program I recommend Core FTP!
