At the moment there is very little else that is occupying my universe. It has occurred to me that the black belt grading of doom is only two weeks away from tomorrow and I am still feeling a little bit short of time. I finally understand what he meant when he said I need to display more confidence. I know now how I need to perform but that is something that is going to take some practise. At the moment I am trying revolutionise my karate instead of just relaxing. There are some things that needed to be fixed, otherwise I was told that I was okay to go. The more I think about it, the more difficult it becomes... Unfortunately, it is hard for me to not think about what I am doing. So I will need to change how I am approaching training in these remaining weeks.

Last night was a brilliant class! This would have to be the first time I've ever been allowed to play good uncomplicated games in senior class! We even had balloon races!!! It really gave me a good lift. Tonight however, I am going to have to train. I never really feel like training after teaching because the whole process is something that I find quite draining. But, I did miss Monday night and last night was not all that strenous either... even if it did give me plenty of ideas to add to my collection.

Yesterday I went out shopping with my sister. I'm now up to $600 in a fortnight spent on myself. Funnily enough, I'd feel less guilty if I'd spent it on someone else! I bought a couple new tees in brighter colours (red, pink/peach and purple), a purple skirt, a light hoodie jacket, a semi faded pair of jeans, two sets of winter pyjamas with matching socks, a stack load of bras and undies and some more Max's WPI for training. (No.. not to build scary muscles like in that link). I did enjoy myself though and am looking forward to trying everything on progressively.

Today has been a productive day... at least for getting things done. My boy has been very motivated and got some , and done, accompanied by a general clean up around the house yesterday. Today he did some while I did some more and and even cleaned up my study, including the cupboards. So I've awarded myself some bludge time!

Garrr @ work tomorrow night in the weather which non-genuinely people.

You fit in with: Agnosticism Your ideals mostly resemble those of an Agnostic. You are fairly ambivalent towards any religion or spiritual connection. You lead a very busy life and find that religion and spirituality are unnecessary to your life. 0% scientific. 20% reason-oriented.

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People are so lazy.... Since I learned HTML as an 11 or 12 year old, I have had my own homepage. If I remember rightly Creatures dedicated page » Graphics creation and sale » Gaming site » Karate dojo dedication » Tamagotchi site » Personal blog (as it is today). I have put in the long hard hours to develop each page from scratch and keep in up to date and in a reasonable state of presentation. But has anyone else noticed the general lack of personal websites in existance??? Perhaps that is why there is no reason to offer free webspace as frequently as what used to occur. Now it is not as if people don't have interests.. they do... but they would much rather use something like.. oh, I don't know.. maybe MySpace to do it! The lazy man's website - no knowledge of HTML required or even a sense of logic or aesthetics.

I feeling a tad disillusioned at the moment. As I've just entered holidays, I am about ready to start on a new project such as revamping my own site and giving it a new colour scheme... but I can't help but wonder for what reason? Almost everyone I know is on MySpace in this little network that you have to actually join to get access to people's profiles. Next to noone cares about visiting independant sites anymore. I wonder how many people actually even read this... there is only one that I can think of... Perhaps that is just a product of not having a whole lot of friends.

Anyway..... today was another lazy day. I received a text about working one of the city stations tonight but I passed up on it. The city scares me and I don't know about parking at the station. Too far out of my comfort zone at the moment and far too cold to be running around after drunks and people with "SOB". I feel guilty about it and know that it won't go well for my rep but my fear of working there is far greater than that. I just hope not to work tomorrow... I really need to get a chance to go to training.

Suppose it is random quiz time

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

So... this is it... Saturday at long last and only one more hurdle to go! Finally, all my exams are out of the way and my semester is finished. I feel just exhuasted in every sense. So much so, I left just enough time to return a text from rosters this morning in hope that some other enthusiastic soul would pick up the job... which they did. It is a bit cheeky but I am just feeling so drained and would much rather sleep. It is like all the energy has just been sucked out of me.

So I now have roughly four weeks of holiday time in which I need to make up some financial ground, clean up the house and particularly my room and get life back on track. All that remains to be done is pass my black belt grading! I have three of my instructors telling me I'm going to be fine but I am not so confident. I've been absolutely guzzling protein powder and trying to detox the body. I've been training as hard as I can too.. but I am not sure how that will hold me come grading day. Though, I still have three weeks left from today.

On Thursday I finally went out and laid down a deposit for my new belt at QLD Martial Arts Supplies. They do a pretty good deal... $80 wtih a choice of belt, unpicking standard with custom embroidery! I was quite impressed! Should only take two weeks to be done which means I can pick it up well before the grading. But, I have to admit that my shopping got extended.... I ended up buying some rebreakable boards for myself and my class, as well as a new gi and mitts from there and RMR. That was an expensive day out...

Yay for the lazy weekend!

It has been a monumentally long time since my last update. Essentially, things got quiet hectic with prac, exams and assignments and I couldn't really justify spending time making blog entries when there was definately something else more important to be doing. I've given myself today off. I handed in the nasty assignment... which was a bit of a disappointment. There were many hours of work put into that thing and the overall product really didn't look all that impressive. Anyway, I'd planned to get into contact with a friend and spend the day buying myself a new gi and ebroidered black belt. However, there was no answer and no reply... Still craving some social contact I got home and jumped on MSN to find busy or working people. So I've just been sitting here randomly waiting for time to go by....

I've decided that come 2pm, I will get up and go and buy that new gi anyway. I really need a second one as my spares have a million holes and are falling apart rather quickly.

So... what's been new?? Think I will have to dot point it.. feeling a little lazy as well.

• I will at long last be attempting my full shodan grading on 14 July, 2007. This has given me just under five weeks to get karate fit and technically perfected in the way that my instructor wants. I am also concerned as rumours fly about the small predicted attendance and the possibility that Shihan will also be there. This means there will be no hiding and I will also have to be damn good!
  
• Wednesday I sat a rather impersonal interview and psychometric test in the hope that I would be offered a position with RAV. It was different to what I had expected.. for example, it was a one on one with a single non-ambulance person who basically wrote down everything that I said... rather than the panel experience. My "portfolio of paramedic practice" went to waste....
  
• One exam down, two to go. Not impressed with all the things I keep realising I've done wrong on my exam though... Anyway, another two to go which are really the hard ones. yay!
  

I'm sure there is more than that but I am running a mental blank at the moment..

I will leave you all with this fantastic video from YouTube. This would have to be the single most funniest thing that I've seen in ages. I'm very sick... This is what doing karate and being a paramedic does to you.