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Thursday, March 24, 2005 13:30:55

Last journal entry for this page. I never got to a chance to finish the last one. My sister rocked up and I had to pack up and go!

Today my body feels a wreck. Got this horrid headache last night and it is still lurking around in the background today. My neck is not as stiff but not brilliant. Feeling quite drowsy too. Be my luck to get like meningitis or something stupid like that!

This Easter will be a good one. I'm going down South to spend my hols with my bf.

I feel like we are just getting closer and closer as time goes on. Whenever I go down there I just don't want to go back home. I miss him. Not long to go now.

Am officially on holidays today. Was supposed to have a prac but that got cancelled so I am on a free run. I wish I could just go down now! I don't want to wait until Saturday! That is sooooo long away!!! Ah well. I am now just gonna start speaking s*** if I keep talking cause I my back aches and I feel just buggered!

Mood: Happy but lethargic
Music: Agitator by Pierrot

Thursday, March 17, 2005 10:41:03

Was supposed to be going to my sister's place to see her and my little niece. She's running 45 mins later and I haven't heard from her. I suspect that maybe she forgot. Ah well. I have uni stuff to be doing anyway. At the moment I am just doing the update that was due a while ago and going through some music CDs a friend has given me. Yes! I finally got them. I am finding KG an increasingly annoying campus to be on. Can't even use a computer in the library without have to sign on. Rediculous. Found that most of the uni computers have USB 1.0 and of course my USB stick is USB 2.0 & 1.1 compliant. *sigh*

Saturday, March 05, 2005 13:48:38

Been at uni for one week officially.

It has been great. I know I have hit the jackpot this time around. I have chosen a career which is going to satisfy me in every way.

I have found myself to be guilty of really finding Contemporary Public Health interesting! I can see that and Health Services Management are very much inter-related. That should make it all that much easier. I am really beginning to see first hand just how different the Health Sciences are different to the Science Faculty. This all about understanding the content rather than memorising loads and loads of information and then being forced to understand it as well.

My favourite subject is Paramedic Practice 1.

It is so interesting and very exciting. I am totally excited at the thought of the things that I will be doing at the end of this year. I don't understand how people can do things like accounting and spend days behind desks doing boring stuff. Just don't get it. I reckon your course coordinator absolutely rocks too! Someone who finally knows what they are on about. Makes such a change from the usually. It is great that the whole course is so close. We are put into situations where we are made to do stuff together so we all work as a team. It's brilliant.

I was thinking about this website today. So far things have been going well. Probably one of the few sites I have owned which I have managed to keep regularly updated and running. The tamagotchi section will probably slow down cause I won't have the time to sit there and make the animations. That may change if Connection 2 gets released in Australia. That is a while away yet but hey.

Okay just ran out of things to talk about.

Mood: Neutral
Music: It's a Wonderful Night

Monday, February 28, 2005 16:27:07

Finally beating a path to recovery. Have spent the last few days in bed quite sick. Nothing like the flu with some sinus infections on the side. ERGH. Anyhow, this may be my last entry for a while as tomorrow will be my very first day back at uni. Though I have both Mondays and Thursday off, I suspect that I will have less time to play here. My poor tamagotchi has suffered much pausing already. Ah well. Time for a fresh start.

Mood: Happy
Music: If there was music, I wouldn't know. Experiencing a degree of deafness from the flu!

Friday, February 18, 2005 13:59:10

My shoulders keep tensing up and it is both painful and irritating. Thought I might just mention that. Feeling a bit tired now. Finally went and got my blood taken for testing at S&N.

I have been so lazy. I meant to go and get it done on the way to karate but the traffic was absolutely insane and so was too late. If I overheard correctly, then my results should still be there on Monday anyway.

Finally sat down to work out my timetable for uni. I think I have everything very neatly positioned. I am happy. I have the two GP classes on seperate days to the KG classes so there won't be any mad rushing around. Hopefully I will get credit for the GP ones anyway. Not impressed with an 8am lecture on a Monday. That is a little bit rude. Have worked it all out so that except for Monday, I have nothing any earlier than 11am and I have two things on each day. It is so weird not having to attend a dozen pracs during the week. Most of them are workshops or tutorials! Next week I will have to go down to KG and have a look around the place, also work out how to get there. Shall be very exciting. May also hunt down the Service woman with a javelin and force her to answer me and acknowledge my existence! lol!

It feels weird to believe that I will be back at uni again! It has been so long. Hopefully this time things will turn out better.

I am really going to miss being with the other two at uni. One has also left Med science I found out and is doing sports physio or some such like that at Sushine Coast Uni and I haven't heard back from the other. I think she would still be at it. Was more her area. I am really kinda scared about starting again with all these new people I don't know. I know not one person (other than myself) of the 66 who are enrolled in my course! I don't know whether a large number will be mature ages with previous experience or more school leavers or what. I just hope it is not like the last bunch who really felt that they need to get little things of coffee to satisfy the uni student criteria in their minds. They just looked soooo wanna be! Hopefully also this group (being substantially smaller) will also be a more together group. We shall see though. I am still fearful.

My nose is itchy. Anyway, I need to sit down and clean up all my junk and make way for the new year. I can honestly say (hug a tree), that I am really happy with my life at this time. In no particular order, I am regaining my health, doing well in karate and become an instructor, have a loving, caring, wonderful boyfriend, am in the course that I want and feel overall really good. And I hope it stays that way.

Mood: Happy
Music: The computer processing, the fan spinning, the traffic driving and the keyboard tapping.

Monday, February 14, 2005 15:14:46

After many hours of sleep I am feeling much, much better. Something crashed last night. It was scary cause I was crying like depression but without the muddled up head thoughts. But that late at night nothing could possibly seem bright. I got up not long ago (shame) and after cleaning up my room (as I dumped all the washed clothes on my bed straight on the floor to just go to bed) I have returned here. I was awoken first though, at 8:30am by my man sending me Valentine's wishes.

The excitement for the day continued this afternoon as my tamagotchi mated with a hanatchi to create yet another little girl. I discovered there is a Valentine's theme built into the tamagotchis when my little tarakotchi sat on the ground thinking about love hearts!

Anyhow, point is I am feeling a lot better and a lot more stable. I am not thinking too deeply about last night. I just don't think that would be a good idea. Sometimes you just got to let things role. Sometimes you also just gotta go to bed and sleep on stuff.

This week I have to contact my course coordinator, get my sleeping habits into line, pay the first half of the instructors jacket, get my blood taken for my doctors appointment next Monday and learn how to drive to Algester!

Mood: Content but covering something deeper.
Music: The sound of the wind whistling through the building.

Monday, February 14, 2005 00:05:02

I feel so depressed. I haven't felt like this in so bloody long. It hurts. It hurts so much. I feel so alone. The whole f***ing world is sleeping and I am here on the computer wasting my life away. I was going to go to be early but it hurt too much so I didn't. So here I am at stupid o'clock listening to the tinny radio music through my computer speakers. I am so tired and my head feels funny. My hands keep tingling and body glitching cause I forgot to take the medication on Saturday and didn't take anything else until I got home after gradings today.

Today started out to be such a beautiful day. I was with my baby in the morning and we went shopping together. He makes me feel so good and he makes me laugh. I love him so much. I miss him when he's not around. We drove back to my place to pick up my karate stuff and went to another friend of mine's place so I could take off to gradings. I had three students grading. But I had white belt grading to go through next. I was around at the wrong time and got told to do kicks which petrified me! I had a bad case of stage fright. When I was up there it didn't take long for me to relax and get into the rhythm of things and soon it was all really good. I felt really quite happy at the end. The biggest compliment was one of my fellow instructors telling me that the way I took the section, they felt comfortable and not nervous. That was really good. I had not realise just how much of an effect the main instructor could have. It wasn't just on the students, it was on the other instructors out the front also!

Then there was the second grading for the coloured belts and I had my three grading. The one I was a little worried about blew me away. I was so impressed with how focused they were. I was really proud of them all. I have to admit to pacing back and forth through a lot of it like a nervous mother.

They were my first ever gradees.

Anyway, I was looking forward just to getting home, having something to eat and then just chilling out on the net for a while. Except then things got twisted. I had the s*** thrown at me. I tried to help a friend but obviously I didn't do it right cause they got all cut threw a shit and left. This has happened for the second time. I feel rather wounded. I feel also angry at this. I was trying really hard to help. How the hell am I supposed to know what she wants to hear if she doesn't tell me. I don't take well to people just storming off and throwing shit like that. Once okay, twice now that is crossing a line. I felt really awful as if it was my fault but as I think about it more and more, I realise that it was not my fault, that is was rather minor, that they over reacted and I was being treated really unfairly. I have again wondered if this is something worth maintaining when I am the one who gets hurt all the time. We get on so well and have a lot of fun. But I guess it is like one of those complexes where you have two people that love each other yet fight like world war. They can't be together but they can't be apart. It is a friendship like that to a degree. This is not the first time something like this has occurred and I am beginning to question whether it is worth it. It hurts because they are a very close friend and a care about her a lot. The thought of cut off is just so painful. But at the same time, I don't want to have to suffer this every time I can't read her mind.

Then there was the nail in the coffin. My boy texts me to say he has quit state team with a number of other mates. It is unclear what the reason for this action was. I have an accessory reason but I don't know. He was a tad intoxicated. What I do know is that he is hurting a lot over all that has gone down and I am very worried. It is so hard to watch him feel such pain. I don't know what to do. My brain says that perhaps I shouldn't do anything at all. Part of me is burned from what happened earlier that night. There is something wrong when I describe what happens in very brief sketchy overview to someone and fear mentioning who I have had this incident occur with for fear that I might had the s*** thrown at me yet again for trying to tell someone else why I feel so c*** and involving them or telling something private or some bull like that.

Right now I just feel so incredibly alone. I feel like I am so far away from everyone else right here in the middle of the night. I wish there was someone here to talk to. I wish I wish I wish.....

Mood: Depressed
Music: What is Love? by Unknown

Wednesday, February 09, 2005 13:01:58

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (53.2%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (46.8%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?(word pair test)
personality tests by similarminds.com

Locus of Control Test Results

Internal Locus (49%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by their decisions and internal drive.
External Locus (51%) Individual believes that their life is defined more by genetics, environment, fate, or other external factors.

Take Free Locus of Control Test
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I have issues with...

memory
crush
past
sacrifice
chaos

Take Word Association Test

This all started from a search for a career test which one site was offering except that they weren't interested in letting anyone outside the US in their site! LoL!

So for whatever reason this lead on to the idea of a personality test and I got searching and came across this website that had stacks. I posted these results cause the first two were really accurate and the third one I felt was rather amusing!

Oh I will show you the career one which I reckon is absolute c***. Come on! As if! A floral designer! A RECEPTIONIST!! Far out! No offence if you have these jobs but they are totally not me!

Outgoing (E) 58.82% Withdrawn (I) 41.18%
Realistic (S) 60.53% Imaginative (N) 39.47%
Emotional (F) 60.53% Intellectual (T) 39.47%
Improvised (P) 55.26% Organized (J) 44.74%

Your type is: ESFP

You are an Entertainer, possible professions include - veterinarian, flight attendant, floral designer, real estate agent, child care provider, social worker, fundraiser, athletic coach, musician, secretary, receptionist, special events producer, teacher

Take Free Career Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Anyway, I am here now doing stuff instead of doing something productive like planning my class a little more thoroughly or calling my course coordinator who still has not returned my email. angry

We decided she is probably an ex-triage nurse and decided my case was not really all that urgent. Well that aside. It's Wednesday and I am frustrated cause I have realised that I won't be able to see much of my babe in future weeks because of all the stuff coming up. This weekend is going to be hard cause I have red belt and above which I can't help but be really tempted to through out to see him instead. It's bad huh. *sigh* Sunday I have to go to gradings cause I have a student going to blue belt and I want to be there for that. I decided that I would be there whenever I have a student grading. In the next couple of weeks there is beach class as well and I think he's got a NAS tournament that day too.

I haven't felt like this for so long. I wish I could be with him much more often....

Mood: Unhappy and in love.
Music: A song on the radio that I don't know the name of "You live in a world where you didn't listen and you don't care.."

Monday, January 31, 2005 15:34:54

Today I found the energy to put together all those tamagotchi images and animations that I had been wanting to do for a while. However, I am now quite tired. I have decided not to go to karate tonight. My body is still feeling a tad fragile after Friday. I don't want to push it. I am all to aware that I will be starting back at uni in another 28 days. I need to really get it back together if I am going to be able to last each day without doing myself some serious damage. I also have to get things together if I want to get that black belt mid year. Though, I am not really fussed if it doesn't happen this time around. I can wait another 6 months or whatever. I mean I can only grow from it.

My belly is being a pain. I ate a singular piece of toast yesterday but it seems the body just doesn't want to know about it.

I miss my boy. People are all thinking we are fighting or something cause we had a dispute over something on the forum. lol!

We learn about one another but it extends no further than the forum. It's gonna be a week until I can see him again. That just seems like forever. It will be a month on Tuesday since we started dating. I can't believe how fast it has gone by! It's a month but it is a month all the same, if that makes any sense. I suddenly feel insecure cause I am falling deeper and I am scared of getting hurt. I fear he will find someone better or something and that will be the end. I guess I hear to many stories about unfaithful bfs.

Thoughts have all internalised. Pointless trying to write anything else when I get like that. I have to focus to hard on actually typing. If I can't write it, it's not ready to be expressed.

Mood: Happy and in love
Music: Sungsuk by unknown author.

Sunday, January 30, 2005 20:32:20

Love it such a beautiful thing!

I feel myself growing closer and closer to him and I am loving it. I'm so scared of getting hurt and so amazed that someone should take an interest in me. He makes me feel so good. I feel completely at peace at the moment. I want to feel like the forever! I want the whole world to know that!

Mood: In Love
Music: My head playing songs

Saturday, January 29, 2005 12:49:13

It has been a while since my last update. I've either been busy or asleep. Hopefully in the future it will just be busy. Worked out at long last that the reason I have gotten worse all of a sudden is because I haven't been sticking to the coeliac diet. That was not really my fault but two weeks has been long enough to undo everything and make me worse then before. Yesterday I slept all day and got up at 4:30pm to go to training which I mucked severely cause my body just crashed. Fortunately I have a very amazing sensei who took care of me otherwise goodness knows what would have happened. Am feeling a lot better today though still very tired.

Had planned to see my bf today however, there has been no word so maybe that is not happening any more. *shrugs* At the moment I feel kinda lethargic and what not so it would probably best if I just went back to bed anyway!

Time is slipping away. At the end of February I will be back at uni once again. I am excited but scared at the same time. I don't know anyone on my course and I realised the other day how I miss being with the other two from med science. Not that I could really hack going back to it anyway. I am hoping things will be different this time around. I don't want to be miserable again. I've been told it will be different and it should be an academic breeze for me but I am not holding my breath just yet.

Anyway, gonna call it quits for now.

Mood: Lethargic
Music: The sound of the fan and the cars on the street

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 14:19:55

It would appear that I never did get back to that last entry. It doesn't seem that long ago but the days seem to have flown by. I have been largely distracted by a new person in my life who has been the source of much excitement and a few tears. My adopted little sister has a strong attachment to me and had not taken too well to my recent absence. It is both heartbreaking and frustrating as this is something that means a great deal to me.

It has been an interesting week with things progressing rapidly and those who know me best will know that it is a dream come true for me.

Tonight is senior training which I am not at all looking forward to. It is too early in the year for me to be dreading training so much. I am on a slow road to recovery. My legs are no longer week just very painful and hard to hold and my tolerance for jogging has increased. I am thinking that next week I will be able to ease myself back into training again on Monday night. I've had much Floradix and iron tablets and meat. This week we got liver. I got served a bit last night and made it through about half. I can't stand that stuff. Gross. Gross. Gross. So it is round two tonight. Something else I am not looking forward to.

Anyhow, just had to do something for Mum and lost my train of thought.

Mood: Love
Music: None

Tuesday, January 04, 2005 10:08:43

So it is officially 2005. Wierd. I think I will still be signing stuff as 2004 for a little while. Last night I had my first training session for the year. I didn't do all that much cause I can feel my body is just not ready for it yet. Tonight I will just have to do the best I can and speak to my RM about my problem.

My tama just morphed into a memetchi. I had not really wanted one but I have to say it is very cute!

This is one character I don't know all that much about so it will be quite a learning experience. Last night I forgot about it in my bag so it went to bed sick and pooped, very hungry and rather unhappy. I have things to do today and tonight so I put the time forward to fix her up. I will put her on "pause" later too. I think sometimes it just has to be done.

Will write later.

Thursday, December 30, 2004 11:26:17

I had another look at my driving test evaluation form thing this morning. I felt a bit better. Although I thought I had used seven of eight available errors, I only technically used five. I got two marks for clutch coasting which don't get counted. On the third time around it become a non critical driving error. So I still could have stuffed up a fair bit more and still passed and I wasn't doing all that badly.

Well that was all I really had wanted to say. I am in a significantly better mood than I was last night. For whatever reason I was feeling terribly argumentative and was getting quite worked up over the idea that there is social class in karate. In my region I had never experienced or observed such a thing. But elsewhere I have and it is something that I am not too fond of. I don't believe that someone is more high society because they have been doing karate x number of years longer than another person. I don't believe a higher grading person is respectful of another if they believe they are lesser because they have done less karate. I don't know how a person can teach if that is what they see. I object to say a white or yellow belt talking about karate like they know it all but I think they are perfectly entitled to an opinion because their opinion is formed on the experience that they have had. I don't weight that opinion as being of less value because they have done karate less. I know there are some people out there who do though.

And to make it public, I am not interested in the historical side of karate. It does not interest me in any way. I see no point about getting hung up over it either. Yes karate has change and some of the meaning has been lost but look around! The whole world has changed and grown. You are hard pressed to find things that are as they were 20 years ago let alone centuries ago. Life changes, people evolve, everything does. Move on and get over it. If it is really so important to learn the ancient form like it was and get beaten over the head with bamboo stick, go to Japan, there is bound to be people there who still do it. Interesting noone seems to want to go and do that. They much prefer the comfortable lives here. Yes I am probably spouting a very harsh opinion but is it not realistic? My interest is in the here and now. Sometimes you just gotta let things go. We practise modernised karate. That is what we get tested on and that is what we use. Alright end of rant.

So before those karate nuts of you (if there are any bothering to read this) go emailing me abuse... this is my opinion and my opinion solely. You are entitled to disagree with it and I am well aware of the arguements against what I have just stated. I do not care to argue about it and if you really didn't like it, you could have stopped reading.

I realise that some of you shall feel that my views are immature and do not show a true understanding of karate and its culture. And perhaps that is true. I do karate because I enjoy it. I do it for the sport, the interaction, the exercise and the concentration. I am serious about what I do but I don't feel the need to explore the deeper side which does not interest me and is not a part of the reason I do karate. Is it your place to condemn me for what my interests hold or don't as the case may be?

Hmmm. I had not meant that to turn in to that. Oh well. *shrugs*

Mood: Irritated
Music: None

Wednesday, December 29, 2004 12:03:38

I am such a snob! Today was the day! The official day. The day I wanted to be done with more than anything else. The day of my driving test...which I passed. I now have a sparkly new yellow card saying I can take to the road all by myself anywhere in Queensland. Valid for three years, you'd think I'd be happy. Not to say that I am not, I am just not as happy as I would like to be. You are allowed 8 errors and I made 7. I wanted less. I am such a snob. It is just like in school where I wasn't happy with anything else than top marks. Anyhow, I was really quite nervous. I am only now just coming down from it all. Strangely enough I don't have the desire to tell the world... at least not just yet. I suppose that seems a little bit contradictory when I am writing this on an e-journal. I just don't consider it telling the world I guess. I have no idea if I even have regular visitors or what.

Last night I set up my family on the Sims. Okay, don't feel like talking about that anymore. Last night I had also wanted to write about the possibility of taking an extended break from karate. Don't feel like that any more either. *sigh* I am going back to bed.

Mood: Neutral
Music: None

Monday, December 27, 2004 13:50:20

For some reason I awoke this morning and could have sworn it was Tuesday. My sense of time is all out of whack at the moment. I have to admit I have been a tad lazy with the website at the moment. I got Sims 2 for Christmas and have been stuck on it from the moment I installed it on my computer. (That would be all four discs and 3 gig worth!). It is incredibly reaslistic. I find it somewhat hysterical at times. I have added a couple more animations from my Kuchipatchi but I have been rather lazy about that too! I was actually gonna write a good entry today but I just lost the content!

Ah well.

Mood: Happy
Music: None

Friday, December 24, 2004 13:33:39

Feeling awake but not as energised today. That was because I was up late last night chatting and when I got off chat, a cockroach continued to terrorise me for another 1.5 hours! Yes, one of my biggest irrational fears is the cocky. I hate them and they scare me. I can handle the house ones that don't fly but as soon as you give me one of those outside ones that fly everywhere I just go to bits. For some reason late night, one cocky, choose my building (of all buildings), choose the 8th floor to fly to (of all the floors), choose my balcony (of all the others there were) and came in to my room. It was horrible. I thought I could push it out...and then it start flying. Cockies always fly at me! EEEWWW! I think is just having fun making the big thing run away! Horrible beast. Fortunately at about 2am my Dad came to the rescue and turfed it outside again. I am such a wuss!

Anyhow, I have done a little more animating. I am learning more and more as I do it. I learn about how the image work and just how many of the images are repeated. I never realised it before.

In another hour I'm gonna have a shower and get ready for our miniature Christmas function. I drew a Christmas tree on a piece of paper with green and yellow highlighters, red pen, gold & pink glitter pens and a black pen. I tacked it on the front of this statue which is sitting where the presents are. For some reason our Christmas tree has gone missing in action from last year and I just will not have Christmas without a Christmas tree...especially when we are having Katie around.

*yawns* I suppose in the meantime I will just relax.

Mood: Christmassy & Happy
Music: My Favourite by Atsuko Enomoto I just realised how annoying this song is. I am listening to a different CD for once cause I had the need for some new different music. This one has the two extremes. About half I love and half I skip as soon as they come on and that leaves a few that I am a little bit so-so about.

Thursday, December 23, 2004 14:24:41

I had this crazy idea last night that I would make a whole lot of Tamagotchi animations. So that was exactly what I have been doing all day. It is not so much interest that had me doing it but rather a desire to do something challenging and artistic. Making tama characters is not the most challenging thing I must admit. One square is equal to four pixels, you do the maths! I like coming up with ideas of things to make and also replicating the images from poor quality photos or using a bit of graph paper at speed to copy whatever Eggy is up to.

Amazingly, I awoke at about 8am to see Eggy with her Christmas tree and have been awake ever since. There are three possibilities why I have been awake. 1. I have found something stimulating that keeps my brain occupied and therefore is less likely to wonder off into La La Land. 2. The Mulit Vitamin is a super pill. 3. Both.

Anyhow, I have a driving lesson this afternoon. It will be my last one before test day. I can't believe how scared I am of failing. I shouldn't be. I can do a reverse park just fine, I can control the clutch fine driving normally. I can tackle a U-turn, I can do a hill start and I am now even able to do a 3 point turn without any drama. I should be okay. *shrugs* All those stories about people failing for being too cautious doesn't help. How can someone fail for being too cautious??? Okay if they sat at a round about for 5 minutes and waited for there to be no traffic anywhere, fine, but really. Oh well. It is starting to storm now. Hope it is over by the time 4:30pm comes!

Mood: Occupied
Music: Akurono Oka by Dir en Grey

Wednesday, December 22, 2004 15:46:13

I went to bed late last night. It was a bit after midnight. I wanted to see Picls do the leaving ceremony with Eggy. It was rather sad. At about 11:59pm, Picls got up out of bed and stood very still watching his baby girl sleep for about two minutes. Then he opened his mouth and said I silent goodbye, closed his eyes and drifted up slowly off the screen. Now I understand why that happens at midnight instead of any other time of day! So today Eggy became independant. She already has three training bars and at present is rolling around on the screen. She evolved into a Marutchi child. Not surprising considering her mother was a Hanatchi. She will either become an Itchigotchi or a Hinotamatchi tomorrow.

It is almost four o'clock now and I really want to head off jogging with Dad. I should rest. I should rest these two weeks. It really won't hurt. I'm so frustrated. Sitting still is just foreign concept to me. I suppose it won't be too long until the two weeks are up and I can get back into it all.

I slept for most of today. I was just exhuasted. I have a theory why and I'll test it out tomorrow. In the meantime I am feel rather drowsy. I don't like being like this. All this makes sense now. Those times when I could have sworn that I was able to hold shikodachi for less and less time, it was actually true because my muscles were disappearing away from underneath me. I am wondering if I should tell my RM about it. It sounds rather stupid. I mean, I am suffering from something that people who gat stranded without food in the middle of the ocean get! I also don't want to do anything that might jeopardise my BB grading. I just don't know.

Mood: Confused
Music: None

Tuesday, December 21, 2004 12:34:34

I have hit page two of my e-Journal. Like my old website, I have decided that 10 entries per page is quite enough. Though, that might get bumped up to 20. I will see how long this page ends up too.

Today I woke up early to show my Mum Picls looking at his little Christmas tree. Strangely enough I don't feel all that tired now though. I suppose that is a good thing. I did some Christmas present wrapping so now all of that is done. I love getting creative with that sort of stuff.

I also made my Tamagotchi page official. I had to play around for a while in order to remember how I made the title bar and buttons. The title bar is a bit big but it will do. I figured it would give me something to do today. I got it all done a little bit faster than I had expected that I would.

Tonight will be another night at home. Strangely enough I am not yet missing karate all that much. The days seem that much longer without it but I am not missing it. I know I needed the break but I didn't think it would take long for the cravings to kick in. I suppose it is early days yet. I went to a regional break up on Sunday. It was pretty cool. Most of the people there would have no idea who I was yet they were all really nice. I made a quick $10 by getting my face painted and hair done as a fairy!

It was really something that I wouldn't have thought twice about. I am not afraid to get silly. I went to Craindale afterwards dressed up like it. Strangely enough, I didn't feel in the least bit self conscious. At times I would even forget that I had a face on! Until someone had a giggle of course!

Region 10 is an awesome place. I like how the RM is not afraid to get up and do kata for the crowd and will get the instructors up to do stuff. I guess I can't help my frustration with my region. I would not even think twice if I got offered a teaching position down there. *shrugs*. It is a better region for me at the moment I think.

Music: Beat of Destiny - Two Mix
Mood: Happy

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